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Assalamualaikum everyone :)

Today is 24/1 soooo is it too late to say Happy New Year ? Hahahaha got no time to post and reminiscing my 2016 went like what. Hmm to me every yar has its own impact. Filled with joy , tears, rejected crush (sedih) , achievementsand so on. But the big difference for 2016 is im a lot more independent. Thanks for Fazira's loss , im a lot better now (yeke) dari segi keberdikarian hoho.

Ok done with 2016. Allah knows 2017 got a lot tougher *whutt just started kot kau dah mengeluh* no lahh . So this year im the vice of PRS (Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya) Haha its just a small organisation, handle mostly with the juniors je. Our role is not as big as the prefects...... but yeah its fun !! Not too much work but still contributing for the school hehehehe. So , every year in SM Sains Rembau the Form 5 will handle the form 1 students to get used to our effing tight schedule, our fun events and of course, our scrumptious Dewan Makan (Eating Hall) *roll eyes* Unluckily but i believe in His faith, i was there for my dearly Extrovert cycle 3 for just a week. It was a really fun week with them. Most of them WANT to study in SMSR, not being forced by parents or what, its good! (Me too ok) Lots of games held and some went swiftly and some was alittle bit chaotic. Biasalahhhh *alasan*

The first week of school went not so well since i got diarrhea. Yes , i did. Sakit nak mampos perut pagi pagi tu . Oh no bukan pepagi je everyperiod nak pergi tandas melabur kau tau?! My appetite was completely gone. This part memang best ! Most people tegur kurus hahahaha as a fatty fatty girl i felt so happy kot nampak cheek bone heheheheheh but i was skiny(erk taksampai tahap skinny lagi pon act) in not a healthy way. Got fever everyday, go to toilet every possible period  wondering if that was fart or your own waste *seriously* and i dont even finish a plate of rice in dm (take note portion nasi aisyah kat sekolah sket je k)and i always slept in classes. So one day i went to the kk (klinik kesihatan) Rembau bcs i guess i couldnt take it no more plus my busy schedule sampai 4 petang kelas macam nak mati. The dr was really nice (thumbs up to KK Rembau !) she seemed really care about me, or at least about her patient. Yelah , normally doctors in kk selalu malas nak layan orang bcs they got a lot more patients waiting so layan pon dengar point mana penting then kasi ubat jela. K.  So they took some of blood and stated that i had anemia. Allahuakbar. Id never imagine myself got insufficient of blood bcs i WAS healthy. I was a lil shocked at first tapi nak wat cane an. And i got gastric too. The dr asked me to go to HTJ (Hospital Tuanku Jaafar) and she gave mc . I was a lil bit scared bcs i thought i was not that sick to get mc and MUST go to the hosp but i just followed her advice. I called mak and she rushed to SMSR :') That's why i dont know how to live without her bcs shes such a saviour.. Ive packedmy things and went back home.

That night we went to i dont exactly remember the name of the hosp but first we went to a private Chinese hospital to check my body. The doctor tested my butt (i dont know what he did) but everything was fine. My butt wasfine (lol)  but they asked us to go to HTJ jugak. Yelahhhh pergi la ni. So that night i got warded. AISYAH GOT WARDED FOR THE FIRST TIME EVAHHH! It was actually quite exciting since id never been warded hoho. But i dont really like hospitals (sapeje suka) because they like to cucuk me ! I dont really care about the pain ( i have to get used to pain bcs i believe there is pain that more pain than that u understand?!) The food in HTJ was not so bad la but still i didnt take it bcs Mak masak lagi sodap. Kang kejap bawak bubur ngan sambal goreng + telur kag kejap bawak ayam berlada kang kejap bawak fish and chip dahlah dok sepital memishang . I missed my studies like 2 weeks and i just do my revisions on form 4 topics (rip spm) .

Point aku membebel ni sebenarnya, don't ever give up with Allah. To be honest, i was so down when i was in hospital bcs i was too depressed of not going to school (sorry saya gila sikit suka gi sekolah) No , actually i was drowned by the worries of my responsibilities. As a SPM candidate, as a vice president of PRS , yeah i was the one who should be busy planning with Joe to handle the kids but I was not there so Miroz ganti , Syira ganti , i feel so bad and sooooo irresponsible. :( . Theres a time i was thinking that why i just dont die? Seriously bangang gila time tu. Hahahaha actually the action was supported by the song Cancer sang by Twenty One Pilots hahaha cuba dengar that song memang untuk orang nak mati takde harapan nak hidup hahah.

Then , one day, Allah sent Along's friend along with her mother to visit me by the hosp. Iwas alittle bit touched bcs she brought me Oreos and Cadbury (saya suka oreo. Tapi saya lagi suka dark chocolate saje bagitau hint) . Her mom came to me masa depa dah nak balik nuh, and gave me some motivation ah nak sihat an. She wanted me to be strong for Mak. She said through her experience as her daughter got cancer and she survived alhamdulillah! She said its not easy being a mom to a chronic disease sufferers. Tapi memang betul. Looking at moms effort on my disesase, shes more curious than i am. She cares about my meds more than i do. She gives me nutritins that i nevercare about. She seems love me more than myself.

Pastu malam itu pun ku bermunasabah gitewww. But betulla. Allah baru tarik satu nikmat dari aku. Memang la agak menyusahkan have to go for appoinments , endless pills have to be choked every meal and others, but there's much more to be grateful of. My family will never let me face this alone. They even took turns to babysit me :D . My father never got tired to drive all the way from home to HTJ to send foods and took care of me, fulfilling my needs. Susu , dry towels and clothes for me. Mak lagila dah mention atas tadi. My kakaks were being super nice too. Despite of berkira nakbuat kerja rumah hohoho they bought whatever i want hehehehe especially foods la waffle oreo ice cream and others. Senang cite takleh hidup ah takde family ni :')

Friends are being caring too. Geng Jannah is the best gang that i found. Theyre like my second family kot. Maimus is the mother of course. Cleaned my locker to break the pills into two bcs i cant eat them they are too big :( to give me endless motivation and the one who can bear with my vomit hehe. Syahirah, my usual saviour. Tahlah pompuan ni macam angel (allahu) au . She will be here whenever i need her especially kat dorm and academics. Takde perempuan ni lifeless aku :) Yang lain pun sama . Rahilah aku rembat minyak cap dua singa dia sampai pecah cap ganti pakai tisu je terox ngat sakit perut time tu. Nadia balqis era ain pon caring juga :) Ni nak mintak tolong Balqis ajar time coti ni plis Acik Aliza (yeye je Aliza) ngan Acik Ameer Sharip kasi saya ni dahlah lembab sket Addmath ni hoho. Extrovert cycle 2 pun apa kurangnya. They asked about my condition everyday kot. After solat kepe , they feel my body temperature pastu kepoh panas la apa la . Mana tak sayang Extros :') Juniors pun caring . My adik adik dorm, Haziq Yunos yang tak pernah penat nak layan cerita sakit aku , meroyan pasal AJL , dengar pasal orientasi dia , Zharfan yang aku ingat tak pernah kisah pasal aku sebab we only communicate bcs of debate (he's a thinker tapi dia kuat makan) pun whatsapp aku tanya whats wrong with me and diagnosed apa la.Oh yaaa!!!!!! Miss Jas (my debate trainer) also came ! She is so sweet. She came right away after school even at that time the SMP Padang (if im not mistaken) students from Indonesia datang and of course she was in charge for their dinner kat Man Tomyam. She even bought me magazines and big-sized roasted almond Cadbury. I was so touched. We had a kinda short but quality conversation yeahhhh abt school la kan. Thankq everyone Aisyah loves you !

Jadi,

Never stop counting the blesssings Allah has given to us because it is endless :)

And..... Jangan give up dalam hidup awak tu because there is much more to achieve in life. Kepada sesiapa yang nampak saya menangis di surau lepas ni , please motivate saya sebab kadang saya pun tak termotivate nak teruskan hidup ok bai.